Sunday, April 15, 2012

Someone to lean on #6

Boulevard of Broken Dreams-Green Day
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's f***ed up when everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

Instrumental solo
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'til then I walk alone...

Have you ever had crushed dreams? Or you got your hopes up so high, you were sure you would get what you wanted and then you don't? Imagine how it would it feel if you were lifted up so high, your hopes soaring through the sky, and then reality checks in and suddenly your hopes can barely be lifted off the ground. This song makes me think that it's about loneliness. Of course, loneliness is the idea o the song, hence "i walk alone," but i mean real loneliness. It makes me think that whoever is singing the song, (not the band themselves, but whoever is meant to be their "character") is depressed. They had hopes high and soaring and then when their hopes crashed, so did their life. They became depressed and pushed everyone away. And for a short amount of time, maybe it felt good to be isolated, but then they realized that is a dark and dangerous place inside your mind all alone. Being depressed and isolated isn't the answer, but when they want someone to be there with them, no there, because they were pushed away.

"I walk a lonely road/The only one that I have ever known" Right here, in the lyrics it's mentioned that it's a lonely path they are taking. They are lonely and isolated. But, they've never been happy. All that's ever been known to them is having their hopes shot out of the sky. Always being lonely, not having someone to sit next them , to stand by them, all pushing people away. They grew up on this path and now as they get older, they realize the seclusion and isolation and loneliness most importantly, can not save you. Thinking that, oh time will pass, if i have my lonely time now i'll be better in a couple weeks. No, it only gets worse. It's like drowning. The more you don't try to get your head above water, the deeper you're gonna sink. And you're gonna need someone's help to save you, but your to deep for rescuing and nobody can help you. "My shadow's the only one that walks beside me/My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating" When i hear these lyrics, it makes me think that the person become horrible and mean to anyone around them, even trying to help.That he was so deep in being lonely that when someone reahed out to them to help them, "save them from drowning,"  they refused the help, pushed them away. And after pushing everyone around you away, who's left to stand by your side? No one. And "My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating" saying that they were so shallow and cold-hearted to other people that the only thing around that's "alive" really, is their heart.
"Check my vital signs/To know I'm still alive and I walk alone" It's like them being sarcastic saying just make sure I'm stil alive check my vitals and so that im alive and can continue on this road. It could also mean the person wanting it to be a dream. Make sure my vitals are all okay and nothings with me, check, make sure it's reality and I'm not dreaming about how lonely i am. How alone i feel an walking the road of life i have to do it solo. I don't have anyone there to help me, to guide me, i pushed everyone away.

Life is the longest road anyone can travel on. Life is also the shortest. No telling when your time is up, how long you'll live. No telling when a tough decision is coming, you can't hide from them. It may seem tough and scary but with someone with you, you know that you always lean on them and they'll always support you. But what if you don't have that support system? Life won't get any easier and eventually you will need someone there to giude you and help you through choices you may think you can decide on your own. But if you mae the wrong choice, it won't affect you now, it'll affect you later. It'll be a constant struggle to want to live. You need someone there to give you motivation, because if they don't, who will?

Friday, April 13, 2012

Hardships #5

Hands Held High-Linkin Park
Turn my mike up louder I got to say something
Light weights step to the side when we come in

Feel it in your chest the syllables get pumping
People on the street they panic and start running

Words on loose leaf sheet complete coming
I jump in my mind and summon the rhyme, I'm dumping

Healing the blind I promise to let the sun in
Sick of the dark ways we march to the drum and

Jump when they tell us that they wanna see jumping
F*** that I wanna see some fists pumping

Risk something, take back what's yours
Say something that you know they might attack you for

Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before
Like it's stupid standing for what I'm standing for

Like this war's really just a different brand of war
Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor

Like they understand you in the back of the jet
When you can't put gas in your tank

These f***ers are laughing their way to the bank and cashing the check
Asking you to have compassion and have some respect

(Bridge)
For a leader so nervous in an obvious way
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
In their living room laughing like "what did he say?"

(Chorus)Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen


In my living room watching but I am not laughing
Cause when it gets tense I know what might happen

World is cold the bold men take action
Have to react or get blown into fractions

Ten years old it's something to see
Another kid my age drug under a jeep

Taken and bound and found later under a tree
I wonder if he had thought the next one could be me

Do you see the soldiers they're out today
They brush the dust with bullet proof vests away

It's ironic at times like this you pray
But a bomb blew the mosque up yesterday

There's bombs in the buses, bikes, roads
Inside your market, your shops, your clothes

My dad he's got a lot of fear I know
But enough pride inside not to let that show

My brother had a book he would hold with pride
A little red cover with a broken spine

On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside
When the rich wage war it's the poor who die

(Bridge)
Meanwhile, the leader just talks away
Stuttering and mumbling for nightly news to replay

And the rest of the world watching at the end of the day
both scared and angry like "what did he say?"

(Chorus)
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
Amen
With hands held high into a sky so blue
As the ocean opens up to swallow you

With hands held high into a sky so blue
As the ocean opens up to swallow you

With hands held high into a sky so blue
As the ocean opens up to swallow you

With hands held high into a sky so blue
As the ocean opens up to swallow you

With hands held high into a sky so blue
As the ocean opens up to swallow you

With hands held high into a sky so blue
As the ocean opens up to swallow you


No one wants that knock on the door. That knock where soliders are standing in your doorway. But you don't know them, all you see is a flag in their arms, and then the news of your lost loved one comes bearing down upon you, as they say their sorrys and leave the flag in your frozen arms. Sometimes, you get a letter first. Whether a letter or soldiers appear at your doorway, nobody is prepared for the news you're about to recieve. Everyone who was heard this song relates it to war. And i think the whole main idea is about war itself. But sometimes, if you just close your eyes and listen to the lyrics, you'll hear lyrics relating to control and money. That's what i think war comes down to. But it doesn't have to be a big war like Afghanistan to be a war. You can be at war with yourself battling addiction,trying to take control of your life or everyday trying to make ends meet financial for you family, or even battling cancer or illnesses that you need money for, but don't have and have no idea where to find some. When i listen, i hear advice to take control of my life, to take it back, but to realize the unequal balance and favoritism towards rich and poor.

"Risk something, take back what's yours/Say something that you know they might attack you for/Cause I'm sick of being treated like I have before" Verses 6-7.  These few lines, say so little but have such a immense meaning to them. It's advice to all those who can't "take back what's" theirs, who are to afraid to make a stand against a greater force. Who are afraid that people will think wrong of them, and laugh at what they stand for. Because it's so easy to just stand there and watch. To stand back and obey. Because, who can get in trouble if they're doing nothing wrong, if they don't start a movement and are just  a simple pawn. These lyrics scream out to do something. To not let another kid get bullied, another person killed, another life controlled.  "Like this war's really just a different brand of war/Like it doesn't cater the rich and abandon poor" Verse 8. It doesn't have to be a actual WAR between the rich and poor. Everyday is a war between them. The constant struggle for poor families to make ends meet for their children. Some soon-to-be mothers deciding that she can't bring another child into the world right now and having an abortion. Not all rich people are mean and ignorant. Most give much of their money to good causes, and do right and just acts to help the poor however they can, but some...It's a horrible thing when they only thing it comes down to in the world is the amount of money you have. A few years ago, i heard someone say to one of their friends that a close friend of theirs had just died from pancreatic cancer. They then continued on to say that Patrick Swayze also had had pancreatic cancer. The difference was the person's friend was told 2 months left to live, he only survived 2 weeks. Patrick Swayze, survived 20 months, almost 2 years. Now maybe their cases were different. Maybe one person was healthier then the other, but what the person said next, does have  some truth to it. They said "the more money you have, the longer you live. Because you can pay to have all these expensive sugeries done, but yet us middle class and poor can't afford those and our survival rate is shot outta the sky." I'll never ever forget what that person said. "On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside/When the rich wage war it's the poor who die" Verse 20. My favorite verse in the whole song. Because, you don't really thimk about it until you hear it. I never thought about it that way. The constant struggles middle class/poor have to face everyday. Trying to scrape enough money together to feed their families. Agreeing to crazy jobs that at any moment, theire life could end. Because it's so true. If the rich and the poor were ever divided in the world and went to war, who would win, the rich.....or the poor?

Nobody wants to think about the struggles that everybody faces. Who wants to think about hunger and devastation and death? If we don't think about it, does that mean its nonexistent in the world? No. No matter how many times we avoid the hardships other people face, its still reality, its THEIR reality. And when you really think about WHY their reality is the way it is, I'm sureee you can figure out that money has played some part-small or enitrely- in their liestyle.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Demoralization (#4)

When someone demoralizes you, you are belittled, stripped of your morals, taken off your high perch. When someone demoralizes you, it's mostly for revenge. They feel you have hurt them or even indirectly demoralized them some point in the past. In my book, Hannibal by Thomas Harris, Clarice Starling is demoralized by a higher power of authority-Paul Krendler. Paul had once taken a liking to Claice Starling, and tried to pursue her as something more than a friend. Clarice, realizing the come on, and not feeling the same as Krendler, declined him as politely as she could. But Krendler holds Clarice to that day, he holds it over her career and tries to ruin her whenever he possible can. In the past experiences, Krendler has failed, but this time, rendler succeeded and ruined Starling's career, forever. I think Thomas Harris really wanted to accentuate that even in a work force that works to demonstrate justice in life, people can still demoralize you. Sometimes its better to leave it alone and sometimes its better to fight back against it.

Clarice was really demoralized in this book. She was acting out in true justice and tried to prevent inocent people from getting injured but yet somehow, Krendler turned the tables on her and made it seem like what Clarice did was wrong and injustified. After getting Clarice put on patrol watch, Clarice was still functioning better then Krendler wanted her to. He wanted her to regret every saying no to him. Right there, he seems like a sociopath. He wants to be the Alpha, he doesn't get turned down, he turns down others. Krendler went further on in her career to in the end, getting the higher power to suspend her on the team temporarly. As a FBI cop, the FBI works to keep order within the boundaries given. But if the team cannot see what goes on between co-workers, what happpens right under their noses, how can they see clearly. Krendler worked really hard to get Starling suspended for one reason only. She was smarted then he wanted her to be. She was figuring out that Krendler was going around the law to get more money off the book.

I think this is a big important part in life. Especially when people are in work forces. Some people have to be in control and if they're not, they becom nasty and rude and revengeful. They want you to pay double for what you did to them-w.e. you did or "did". They want to demoralize you in front of your other co-workers. Strip you from your morals, make you seem to be heartless and cold.  Thomas Harris wanted to show readers how demoralization affects the human mind, it manipulates the mind to think less of yourself, to second guess yourself, to make you weak. And when you're weak, people can break you down easier. They can create a monster out of nothing, just by demoralizing you and taking advantage of your emotions.

"Suicide" or Hard-Core Murder (#3)

http://www.good.is/post/hug-a-hoodie-what-the-u-k-teaches-us-about-making-a-sweatshirt-a-symbol/

In the article, Hug a Hoodie:What the U.K. Teaches Us About Making A Sweatshit A Symbol by Tim Fernholz, the article mentions the heated debate between citizens/strangers about Trayvon Martin's death. Tim mentions in the article how a tv broadcaster and the U.K. blamed the outfit that Trayvon chose that day as the cause of Trayvon's Death. Many other people were outraged by this accusation, calling it racism and injustice to blame articles of clothing as the cause for someone's death. Tim Fernholz brings up these heated topics in the article about hoodies. Not only to people blame the hooodie, they still do blame Zimmerman, but unlike others, people count the hoodie as well. The article tackles mentions different quotes taken from important people in the world. The quotes voice the opinion of the speaker and how diferent people may have different approach to this topic. While some may want Zimmerman locked up in jail, others also want to make a point to the public speaking out against sweatshirts. How in society today, a common article of clothing can now be blamed for the death of a teen.

Tim Fernholz voices his opinion in the article. At the end of the article, the very last line is; "While it’s easier to demonize a few square feet of cotton than face up to endemic racism and poverty, it doesn’t get us any closer to tackling the real problems." Fernholz mentions this meaning how people in the world can blame a sweatshirt and make the sweatshirt seem like the bad one. But while everyone is pointing fingers at the sweatshirt, we as a society will make no progress on trying to find out the real problems and taking care of them.  Fernholz makes a big point in his opinion in the very first paragraph of the article. It states; "Profiling is a dangerous game. Trayvon Martin lost his life in February after George Zimmerman decided the unarmed black 17-year-old in a hooded sweatshirt on a rainy night was a threat." Tim states this as the beginning of the article for a reason. He starts out with his opinion. He is speaking out against stereotypes and how people profile others based simply on appearance.

I am personally outraged by the accusations against the hoodie. I will admit, while it HAS been observed that low-income teenagers do where hoodies, I DO NOT believe that certain races only wear hoodies, or many in one race wear hoodies. I believe that any race has the option to wear hoodies, just as much as the others. But although there migh be more races who wear hoodies than others, people shouldn't stereotype them for that reason. I am nor latino nor black and yet i do wear hoodies. My friends, who are culturally diverse, wear hoodies. Does that make us bad? Does that mean that (god forbid) we can be killed because we are wearing hoodies? Will someone be sent to jail because they wore slip on shoes? If we start basing our justice system upon stereotypical remarks about clothing and crime, our justice will be forever inblanced. I think that Trayvon wearing a hoodie had nothing to do with his death. Maybe Trayvon always wore hoodies, maybe he felt most comfortable in the them. But one night, wearing his favorite hoodie, he was shot dead. It was an unlucky night for him, but he did not lose his life based upon articles of clothing. When people base unlawful actions on articles of clothing (like hoodies), you are stereotyping eveyrone who has ever worn that article of clothing. Everyone has to go through a sweatershirt phase in their life. But if they wear hoodies, does that give people the right to go around and shoot them, and then get off free because of what the victim was wearing? "Oh, he was wearing a hoodie. Okay, that makes your point blank range shot perfectly acceptable." I don't believe that's right, do you?