"You're going to treat me, Doc. Cure me. Fix it so I don't have to kill anymore. You're going to set me free."

SPOILER ALERT. When Harold Gund impersonatated Erin's sister and then abducted Erinfrom her home late one night , first thoughts always lead to, What does he want? Why impersonate Annie, and then drive around with me in the back duct taped and tied? Erin is a pychologist who specifically speacilizes in patients with fire fears or problems because of her ongoing fear of the flame itself because of an incident when she  was younger. Now held captive in somesort of basement in an empty house, Erin talks with the abductor and finds out the heart of the problem. Harold has a compulsion disorder of some sort where he kills only women. He has killed three so far, all by setting them on fire. He doesn't even realize when he goes out to buy the equipment that he starts to get this compulsive feeling to kill. He doesn't want but he won't tunr himself in. He told Erin she has to cure him or she will become the fourth.

This quote kind of reminds of what a four year old might say to their mother or father. "Fix it Daddy." "I need help Mommy." It's kind of like showing Harold's weak side. He's ths strong and vicious abductor but when he says this, it's like a cry for help. It is a cry for help. He's showing himself as a person and not cold-blooded. There's something about this quote that just got me. like, when he says "You're going to set me free". When he says that, it makes me think that he is bipolar. That he is being trapped much like the victims he kills and then instead of burning he just suffers. He suffers everytime he kills a woman and finally realizes what he does. Let's say for a minute that he is bipolar. That he is a victim and yet a murderer in one. But most murderers are victims in someway so what makes Harold so different. To me, it's his cry for help. It's like he's eing controlled. He definetly has a disorder, i think. And Harold is also different because he doesn't realize what he bys until it's to late. That he kind of puts himself in a trance and is a puupet to it's master. Except the master of Harold, is his brain. The brain is gentle and loving but yet deceitful and cunning. It can play tricks, much like a magician. But the brain isn't magic.

"Fix it so I don't have to kill anymore". That's Harolds cry for help. That's him making his SOS. He's just a puppet in the show. But he's a puppet and puppet master all tryin gto be the victim and the killer. Many people have hidden SOSs' or ries for help. But many people even thought the signs may be clear, they ignore it. If they don't know the person, who gives what goes on in that persons life, as long as it doesn't affect theirs. But people with that attitude, tend to in the end, are the ones that need help. That need someone to lean. Most people should just look the other way like they did to them, but some are different. They see help and help. They don't walk by it. When opportunity knocks, people take it, but when people are in troubel and need help, they jut walk away, not giving a second glance back. Erin is different. She helps others, so i have a strong feeling. Erin will survive and get help form those who got helped by her. Returning the favor is what it's called. Returning the favor is what more people need to do , be like Erin

Memories

I noticed memories have been coming up now a lot in the mystery/serial killer books i've been reading. All of Michael Prescott books and now other authors have female main characters that have a past dealing with the person they are after or have ties to a person that is extremely similiar to their childhood horror. In On the Edge of Darkness, Laura to go back to the home of the          and from where i am in the book, the man (Mr.        ) was shot and is different in someway. Not just emotionally  but also physically. And it affected Lara dramatically because she remembers little bits of the conversatiion and details from what happened.

It makes me realize how much memories impact us in a negative or positive way. I have been looking at this memory idea for a while now and at different angles. With The Giver, i was just saying how we need choices because then we can't lead our own lives if we don't have one. In class my classmates and i did projects on socal action and some projects had choices in them and i commented on them. And now, in this book about how it affects us. Especially with cops and agents, it either motivates them to get the case solved and help whoever needed it or scared because they have already gone down this dark path and something happened to them. But it's not just cops that memories affect, it's regular citizens to. If you have an abusive past, sometimes people become aggresive or see it and get flashbacks of their childghood.

No matter how deep we may bury a memory, we only need one thought, one action to make the memory resurface. And most of th etime, when it's a memory that gives us fear, once we face it and find the cause of why the memory has come back and fixed it, we bury the memory again and sometimes even though it's in our head, we don't remember it again. If it's not remebered rigth away, it's soemhow resurfaced. Not all always but most of the time with our memories that's what happens. And then all these officers and agnets then have these fearing memories that puch and movtivate them to find out th ekiller or abductor or this or that and face 'em,stop them.